To Remember...

On such a beautiful spring day it's with such sadness we hear about the loss of a young lady in our small city of Medicine Hat over and over again on the radio! Although they are strangers to me, my heart breaks for the family, as I'm sure many more in our community are moved to feel grief for them as well, as it brings back to our own hearts and minds what it feels like to lose someone we love to death. They say time heals these wounds but it's not true, they are still there even years and decades later, but we do learn ways of coping as time goes on, for our own survival.This is probably one of the biggest reasons I am obsessed with taking photographs, especially of my children. When my grandpa died when I was young I cherished the photos of him, when my only aunt went missing for years and was found to be murdered, I wanted all the photos of her that we had. My youngest brother was hit by a car and died two weeks later, just after I got married, we gathered all the photos we had of him and when my youngest sister and three of our friends died in a car accident 5 years later we did the same thing. We just wanted to hold on to them for as long as we could, anything of them. We just wanted to see their faces again. Sudden tragedies are hard to cope with that way, they are just suddenly gone! I guess everyone copes in their own way but that was always ours.I wish we had more photos of our loved ones we have lost. More of us together, more of them just being happy, more of the good times we spent together making memories, more quality photos, just more...I watched a Photography workshop the other week, when Sue Bryce said  "Exist in photographs for your families", and I couldn't agree more! I'm one of those people who has always hated being in front of a lens, that's why I'm behind it as much as possible now, but I have learned this from tragedies in my life, that I must exist in photographs for my family, we never know how much they will be cherished one day!These are some of the few photos I have of my sister Elisha and my brother Alex...miss them so much! So glad I have these photos to help me remember the little things about them!20140407-142505.jpg20140407-142515.jpg20140407-142522.jpg20140407-142533.jpg20140407-142554.jpg20140407-142607.jpg20140407-142613.jpg20140407-142624.jpg20140407-142650.jpg20140407-142658.jpg20140407-142713.jpg20140407-142720.jpg